I’m back again with another given character. This time let talk about our sunshine, Yuki Yoshida. Before we start this is just how I thought of Yuki so nothing serious here XD
Based on wiki I found out about Yuki name means : reason/cause (yu) and chronicle (ki) and there also meaning of Yuki right? Snow? Just as his name his story is as cold as snow yet beautiful and he is yes my second most favourite characters after Ugetsu.
So far before Mafuyu meet Uenoyama, he was caged in the never ending guilt since he thought he was the cause of Yuki’s death and might can never move on since it was Mafuyu who casting the spell “Then will you die for me?” after their small fight. Again I lost focus XD I’m not going to talk about Mafuyu (maybe later) so yeah let proceed.
They first meeting was so cute btw XD Yuki found Mafuyu hiding under the tree looking so small as in protecting himself and bruised. At first it seems like Yuki wanted to just ignored Mafuyu and continuing playing and well not after Mafuyu replying him. Yuki seems like had a zero interest in Mafuyu at first.
“My dad hits me if I speak.”
- Mafuyu
“I don’t have a ‘dad’.”
- Yuki
I take it this is the first time Yuki had fallen in love with Mafuyu. It pretty early to say it since they were just a child but I’m going to stick with my opinions. This is where Yuki had fall in love with Mafuyu. Hard.
I guess it was Yuki’s mother who had called a police and told them about the abused (which I guess Yuki who had told his mother). I guess Mafuyu’s mother maybe afraid to making a report (maybe she was threatened cause Mafuyu’s mother seems like a delicate lady). And look at Yuki’s eyes. It was full of hates when he saw Mafuyu’s father with the police.
They relationship is so pure as it almost a fairytale. Which is almost impossible to achieve. Always together and holding each other tight. Yuki himself is a sunshine and impossible not to love. As been stated by Hiiragi, Yuki was a flashy, dominant and moody. He was everyone friend. Everyone loves him. While Mafuyu was a submissive, introverted and reserved type. Which is their relationship itself is a complete attraction. Completely opposite. Which is lead to question by everyone just how they can become friend. But, they were a puzzle that complete each other. A soulmate.
“This and this and this.”
Truthfully, they relationship remind me a lot of Achilles and Patroclus from “The song of Achilles” book. So in love. So young. So curious. But, unliked the book, this time it was Yuki (Achilles) who died. It was Mafuyu (Patroclus) who was mourning.
Yuki is so soft and gentle whenever he was with Mafuyu. He is type of a person who will sacrifice everything, anything for Mafuyu. Just to see him happy. Just to be happy with him. Since both of them was fatherless and rise by amazing women, Yuki and Mafuyu complete each other. I guess Hiiragi noticed it too it was impossible to enter Yuki and Mafuyu world. What makes it even amazing their mother approved of their relationship. So how perfect it can be?
“Name one hero who is happy.”
Biggest mistake they both had committed is loving so much that every words, every act, every touch and every breath is serious. Nothing is a joke whenever it involves them.
Mafuyu is everything to Yuki. Mafuyu was his life. His, god. Every words of Mafuyu is sacred. His love for Mafuyu somehow had turn into his biggest weakness. His greatest blessing yet his biggest curse. Just like Ugetsu. They portraying each other. Their love for someone/something had turn into poison. Killing them slowly and surely. Parallel to each other. One who die for love and one who suffer for love.
“And perhaps it is the greater grief after all, to be left on earth when another is gone.”
The parallel between Yuki and Ugetsu just my cup of tea.
Yuki who died for love, Ugetsu who suffer for love.
It was amazing how this story almost connected to each other yet so different.
When I read the scene Yuki and Mafuyu on the beach, it hurt like hell. As in Yuki knows about his own death and accept it. The way he speak it, he just let things happened. Like he wanted Mafuyu to remember about him even just a bit. He wanted Mafuyu to forever kept him in his heart even just for a bit. He seems like a person who will not tied someone their love but will still sacrifice even everything for someone their love. Even it means hurting themselves was the last things to do. Yuki is so innocent and like a tickling bomb which will blown anytime given and he did.
“Mafuyu was after all
his first and last love.”
What if Yuki never left? What if Yuki becomes a famous musician? What if everything never happened? I guess Akihiko and Ugetsu will suffering much more? Uenoyama can never understand himself anymore? Haruki and Akihiko never happened? Or maybe all will happened but without Mafuyu in the picture? Ahhh. What I tried to think about it, it only leading me into unexplained pain and happiness but now with Yuki aren’t here it still painful cause I also wanted Yuki to be happy. But, I also comes to love Mafuyu and Uenoyama. So hard to choose.
“When he died, all things soft and beautiful and bright would be buried with him.”
“I will never leave him. It will be this, always, for as long as he will let me. If I had had words to speak such a thing, I would have. But there were none that seemed big enough for it, to hold that swelling truth. As if he had heard me, he reached for my hand. I did not need to look; his fingers were etched into my memory, slender and petal-veined, strong and quick and never wrong. “Patroclus,” he said. He was always better with words than I.”
“He smiled, and his face was like the sun.”
The Song of Achilles and Yuki&Mafuyu just amazingly perfect for me. (let praying someone will write something about this two) 😂
